Yesterday, Russell turned 21 months old.
Its hard to believe that much time has gone by.
It seems like just yesterday I was looking down on him with my heart aching.
All I could feel was fear and sadness...
I didn't know what to expect.
I grieved for the little boy I thought I had lost...The normal I thought was gone.
As time went by my heart healed...That ache went away.
The fear lessened...
And I found peace.
I realized Russell was exactly the boy I had wanted...That our normal was still here.
Watching Russell grow and learn has brought me greater joy than I ever imagined.
There is not a single day that goes by where I am not thankful to have him as my own.
Happy 21 months Russell.
You are a blessing I could not live without.
I love you.